July

May 4, 2012 · Filed under mourning, second trimester loss

July 18th… My baby boys due date… A day that will pass without exception… A day that will fly by with out a care to me or my feelings… I want so badly to be pregnant again before that day. I want something anything to look forward to. I want my hubby to know this, but I don’t want to hurt him because he isn’t ready to talk about it.  I’m not sure how I will make it through that day/month. Hell just getting through April has been hell. July 18th.. Only 2 months away. Only 10 weeks. Only nothing.. Nothing at all.